Be Flexible

I am trying to do more of this and really just go with the flow. I must admit this is really, really hard for me. I am a first born child, who needs to be in control and plan out most everything. I also have to have the last word. Anyway, we have been without daddy for the last few days and it has been wonderfully fun until tonight when I took the kiddos to my bible study. I tried to find a sitter but it wasn't happening. I probably should have skipped it and just enjoyed the evening with my babies, but nope I had them pack up a few things and brought them with me.

Let's just say it all started off just swell with cookies and coloring and then Reece was bored and decided to teach Raine how to play go fish. Well he wouldn't whisper, so I sent them into the other area where there was more light and no ladies to disturb. They played far away from me and my sight. Not good, not good at all. I was so embarrassed by how loud they were being that I left the table on the opposite side of the room and threaten my children with the spoon. They cleaned up all 52 cards that were laying all around the room and stomped back into the main area where the video was being played. I asked them to clean up the rest of their belongs and packed up myself too. I was so mortified, but why should I be? I chose to bring a 7 and 5 year old to a women's bible study; it wasn't their fault they were acting their ages. Reece was being a typical little boy and Raine was a perfect little sister following every move her big brother made.

It took me several hours of stewing and disappointment in my children to get to this point. I should never have brought them, it wasn't their fault and I must apologize to them when they wake up in the morning. I just wish I could start this evening over again...