On Saturday, January 16th, Dublin went to meet Jesus in heaven and we were all there to hold her paws. She had been really sick all week, not eating or drinking. Mo would wake in the middle of the night just to make sure she was breathing. We were very worried about her so Mo called the vet. Jaime, the vet, said to take a urine sample and she would run some tests. The vet said Dublin had blood in her urine and gave us an antibiotic to give her. We bought Dubs some cans of dog food to see if she would like that better than the dry, but nope. She would barely take the pill form of the antibiotic. Mo called Jaime back and she said bring her in. Oddly enough Mo and I were just talking about how old Dublin was getting and how much longer she would live. I told Mo we should pray about this visit to the vet because we may have to make some very hard decisions. We cried and then I asked him if he wanted to go alone, with just me or as a family. When the kids came into our room, Mo brought them into our bed, told them how Dublin is sick and that we had to take her to the vet and that she may have to go see Jesus in heaven. What a horrible conversation to have with your kiddos. It was a sad morning because deep down Mo and I knew Dublin was not well.
At the vet's office, they took Dublin back to check her out and we waited in the waiting room. Then they brought us into this cozy little room with a leather love seat and mirror and a frame with a poem about the rainbow bridge. Mo said where did they bring us, and started to tear up. Jaime came in and told us Dublin had a mass in her belly and that she lost 16 lbs since October. Tears started streaming down my face and Mo asked what was their process for euthanasia. Jaime explained the steps and then left us to make our decision. I hadn't hugged my husband that tight in a long while. It is an extremely sad experience to see your best friend cry so hard. We knew what we had to do, but we didn't expect to make the decision right then and there. I told Mo Dublin was in pain and it wasn't fair to her to bring her home to die. He agreed and Jaime let us say our goodbyes. Reece was so cute, he said we should pray for her and said a sweet prayer which made Mo and I cry even more. Jaime came back with a catheter to inject the anaesthesia but couldn't find a vein. Dubs was so dehydrated that they needed to get a doggie stretcher and take her in the back under better light. Then she brought Dublin back in and asked if we were ready. How can you ever be ready to say goodbye to your doggie, she is like our first child? We all gave Dublin one last hug and nodded our heads. Even though it was the saddest day we have ever had as a family, Jaime made it as peaceful as could be. She was so patient with us. We left there very sad and headed to a park to play. We weren't in any hurry to go home with out Dublin. I was very thankful we had the long weekend to mourn. Mo and I really needed it! We are adjusting to that missing part of our family; it won't ever be the same without her.
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